It's creeping up on 1 am, and I don't know if I will be able to sleep or not. I was having waves of (?)pain(?) flow through me. I've taken half a Darvocet in the hopes that my body will now leave me alone enough to let me sleep. I know, half a Darvocet doesn't sound like anything, but indulge me my stubborn insistance that maybe this time, I can get away with it.
I put question marks around the word "pain" because I'm not sure if pain is the right word. It's a terrible feeling--cramps, nausea, sundering.... I was actually moaning in protest, "No, no, no." But while so uncomfortable that I found myself trying to move away from myself, I'm still not sure that pain is the right word.
I'm supposed to be keeping a sleep diary for a couple of months, to see if there is any connection with the migraines, and also because I get sleep attacks. I've never been able to sleep really well, and for the first time, I am wondering if I get these paroxysms while I'm sleeping and if that isn't what wakes me up over and over again.
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